This is for Rachell Moody to put into the book she is tryimg tp get finshed: In 1962 Dean and I (Ann Bushar) was married we were going to live in Las Vegas Nevada. We meet on a blind date set up by Fenten and Ilona Terry. We went to the Flower Drum song that was playing in Las Vegas on the strip on our first date. I was not sure that he really liked me when he took me home. I was working at the Trafalga restrent in St. George Utah. It was where the Gray Hound buss stoped and Fenten owned it. The next week end I got a telephone call where I worked and I was suprised that it was Dean he wanted to know if he could come down to St. George to take me out and I said yes so that started our courting. We went together from March until Augest and on August te 11th we were married in the St. George Temple.

We started our life together in Las Vegas in a apparatment close to the church. We started out in the 8th word. We haden't been married for very lo ng befor we was able to get i nto a house. There was a couple that was needing to sell their house and we just took over their payments pluss paying them a little more I can't remember how much more but it wasn't very much. We were not married more then a year when we had our first baby. We named her DeAnn.

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On my history of Helen Ann Johnson Bushar 2009

I don't know where I am on my history but I will go where I think I am and hope I am right. After the raid of 1953 after we left Masa Arizona. We as a family moved for a short time to Hurrican Utah then we went to Salt Lake City Utah and while we lived there we moved to atleast three times in the same area. We went to the same school. I lived there in Salt Lake for 6 years. I had made up my mind that I was not going to move again but things happened and I ended up in St. George for the last two years of school. I grauduated from Dixie High. the first year in high school Iwent to East High in Salt Lake. While we lived in Salt Lake City I met a girl named Mary Ann and all the time we lived there we ran around. We were best of friends all the time we lived there. We had our times that we got mad at each others but most of the times we done every thing together. I remember going over to her house and help her do her house work. I didn't do as much over to my house as we did over to her house. I don't know why that is the way it went but it was. We went to the county fair one time and I remember having a litle money I can't remember how mom was able to give me a little money but she did and Mary Ann borrowed what I had left and said that she would pay it back but she didn't and didn't so I ask for it and she got really mad at me for asking for it back. If it had been mine I probably would have lelt it go but I felt that I needed to give it back to mom because I know she didn't have money for food or clothing so I ask for it back. MaryAnn was mad at me for the longest time. But ofcourse we got back together in a day or two then every thing was alright. Well I better go for now because some of my grand kids are here and I don't know what they are doing.

Aug 7, 2009

Here it is 11:00 at night. I just got through working on my family search so I thought I would write a little on my blogg. I hope things get a little better with my family. It has been about four weeks or more since we gave the bussiness to Davit Hull and when I say give I mean give and it is hard to let something that has been in the family for about thirty years go. I don't really understand the people that we let it go to how they can treat Dean like they do. I know why they let the Bushars go because they wanted to do their own thing but to be actly not very nice to is another thing. I hope that Dean can really get out of there so we can go on with our life. I really wish Dean and I could get to go on our mission as we were going to about three or four years ago but Dean keeps saying we don't have money but I know if he would let it go that the Lord would provide so we could go. We really don't have very much money coming in but I know we could do it if we simply have the faith and Dean really wonted to go. I feel we need to really get out of here so we can forget things.

I hope that one day I can really forgive everyone for the things that they have done to make our family have the problem we are having. There are some people that made some of the family atmost hate one another some has come right and told the oones that they hurt that they were sorry but others haven't. I hope some day everybody will do it because we need to be able to forgive. I love all of my family and when I say all I mean the in-laws they are really my family and I hope we can be a family again.

We are having a family fast so we can have the spirit with us all. I love you all and hope I haven't hurt anyones feelings.

Trust this and start right now imagining your life exactly as you want it to be. The challenge of the time in which we live is no longer how much pain can we endure, but how big can we dream, how much joy can we hold, and how long will we let it be they way? Pain and struggle are familiar to all of us, yet it is not our natural state. Our natural state is to feel good and to know happyness. I used to walk around the house repeating between fifty to one hundred times a day, "I am happy, l ife is easy, and it is familiar." I would notice and catch myself making life hareder than it had to be and say to myself, Some part of me is still believing I am a victim and that life has to be hard. Then I sould ask myself, What do I want? I want to feel good, I want to be happy, and I want others to feel good just being around me. Then I would translate that into self-affirmations and say to myself, I am feeling good. I am happy. I am experiencing others feeliing good just from being in my prrence.

whatever you are currently dealing with , know that it no longer has to be hard or rake a long time. to change . Your intention to feel good right now willbe honored and your life will strt to change. Keep coming back to that and thinkgood thoughts as many times as you need to. It will become your reality.

Love to my family and hope you will feel good about your family . Your brothers and sisters as well as your children and I hope you will be happy you are in the family that you are in. May the Lord bless and keep you through out your life. I love each and every one of you and I can't tell you this enough. Love Mom

July 26,2009
It seems like I do good and then I get something going and I stop for a few weeks . Dean and I went to San Deago California to visit with David my son befor he went out on his last six month deploiment. We also went down to visit with him and help them pack up so Rebecca could move down to St George for that six months because they will be going sure duty when he comes back from his six month out on the boat. I hope they do not see too much action while he is out there. David and Rebecca is doing really good she showes each other that they love each other. I am so excited that he found some one that really loved him. I am so excited to have David being able to go the sure duty so he can be with his family more. I also am so happy that he will be able to have Shadow with him more often. I also will be much happer if they can move closer to Vegas where he can get her more often and I hope they will get lawyer to get things streightened out so they don't have as much truble like they have had in the past.
Now I will talke about Bryan for awhile. Bryan lost his shop and was let go so he doesn't have a real job and so he is looking for a job and the Good Year rep has been helping him and it looks llike he has a job in Texas in Antionia. And we think he has a good chance he is going to get his house sold. I sure hope he will be able to get all he needs. I am really sure he will get it. We need to think possitive or we won't get what we want. We need to do our part and then ask the Lord for his help then you will get it but you need to have the faith and if it is what you really need and want you will get it. Well I better close for now and get back on tomorrow. We love you and will talk to you later.

Love Ann

May 25, 2009

After the raid we moved to Salt Lake City Utah. We as a family lived in three different homes while we lived there. The first one was Lindin Av. we lived there for one year . We went to Webster elementary for 6th and 7th grade. It was really quite nice because we lived in three different homes and they were with in two blocks of each other. The last one was right across the street from the school. The others was about three blocks from the school. My seventh grade teacher was named Mr. Scott and this is where I got my son Scotts name. I really liked him. I remember one summer he took his class on a swimming party. I thought I could swim so I went down to the deep end of the swimming pool and jumped in and I decided really quick that I didn't know how to swim because I went up and down and up and down quite a few times before some one got out there to save me. From then on I swim but down in the shallow end of the pool. But I quickly learned how to swim. I taught myself. I later become a swimming teacher but i t was not until I was out of High school. Later that summer we were going to go to Lagoon a amusement park with the same teacher. It was before Lagoon was very big. There was not very many rides there. I think the fun house was the main thing there. It was still fun. I sure loved Mr. Scott he was a very nice teacher. I often wounder if his son is the general authority .

The next thing that happened is the time that Dad decided that the Law was after him so he lo added us all in the car and took us to Nevada so he could keep his family from getting put in foster homes and at the same time he divorced Aunt Esther ,
Dads second wife and married Mom legal. We was not there very long when he decided that he needed to take us to Mexico for the same reason. We were down there for the rest of the summer . Then he took us back to Salt Lake where we lived before. When we got back there our home had been taken and re rented so we had to find us another home. We moved into a house that was over a store right across from the elementary. Dad told us kids that we couldn't go to school because the law was still looking for us and that they would take us kids away from them and put us into a Foster home. I didn't believe that and told Mom that I was going to go to school. Nothing happened .

I think I got to the point where we were moving from Little Field Arizona to Huntington Utah when I last left off. I need to have Rachelle post the last entery because I don't know how to get it back when I save it because I get tired after I have been on the computer for a long time. So I hope I saved it. When Dad moved us from Little Field Arizona to Huntington Utah he had a large truck and loaded all of our things in it but he didn't have a end gate on it and some of us kids had to get in the back of the truck and I remember I was so scared that I would fall out of the back. But ofcourse we didn't but I was still scared. It seemed so long and far away. When we got there it was a coal mind town. There were a few houses but not many and my Dad worked in the coal mind. All we had for a home was a very large tent. There was Isebell, Sherrell, me , Joe, Alma, and Darell. and Mom and Dad. They made two bedrooms and a living room kitschen combind. The boys slept into the living room kitchen and the girls had one of the bed rooms and Mom and Dad took the other bedroom. We lived there for about two years. I was in the third grade when we moved down there. This seems so weird because I was in the first grade when we was in Little Field we moved to Short Creek for a few months befor we moved to the coal mind. We moved so often I get so mixed up. While we lived at the coal mind Mom had another baby boy. He was born in september in the middle of my third year in school my sister Neta lived in Nevada and she wanted me to come live with her for the second half of my third year in school and my mom let me go but if it would have been me I wouldn't have let one of my kids go in the middle of the year but my mom let me go. I don't know that it was too good for me . I think that is why I was not very good in school. I don't think kids do good in school when they are moved around so much. This is what happened to me quite often. I am not saying I didn't have friends while we lived at the mind because I did . It would have been a lot better if we would have been in the church where I am now but we did alright. We lived inthe coal mind for two years. We had to ride the bus for about an hour to school The only thing I didn't like was that I had to be in a school class with two grades in it I happened to sleep through a lot of the class because the teacher would teach the forth grade most of the time. I didn't get much out of the third grade. I guess that is why Mom let me go with Neta. Her husband was the teacher on the ranch where she was living . The forth grade was a little better. I was the older ones in the class then. The next year we moved to Short Creek and that was the year that they had the rade which I wrote about first. When we first moved down the Short Creek we lived into what they called Don Covington Castle. I t was a old mans home that it looked like a Castle. We lived in the top of the house. It was way up in the top of the Castle. We didn't live there very long because Dad decided to build us a home. He had built the base ment and took off to I realy don' t know where. He was raising a garden this is where he was when they had the Big Rade in Short Creek. This was one of the first entreys in my blogg. I am going to close for now because I am tired I hope some day we will get this all in order. May the 25

I don't know where I am so I want to go back befor the raid. We lived in Little Field arizona on a ranch when I was in the second gread. I look at Little field arizona now and it is so large when we lived there it just had a small one room school house and there was seven greads in the school. I think I was the only second greader there. The thing I remember most there was that I was so bashful and I wouldn't talk very much and the I remember the teacher was asking me some questions and I jusst sit there and wouldn't even answer her. She go pritty unset with me and she took here ruller and hit my hands very hard and I guess you know from then on I answered her when she talked to me. These are things that I remember so they aren't reallly in order. I remember it must have a been a lote of rain this year because I me and my brother Sherrrell and Isebell, and Elenor I think and myself went to school there and we had to walk for five miles and had to cross the river and this year the water was really high. I remember my sister Elenor took our black horse which we called toots. She was so big we could all get on her to ride across the river and the water came up to her belly . That day we were late for school and when we came into the class room the teacher and the other studente sang a song to us this is the song they sang to."A diller a doller a ten aclock scaller you use to come at ten o'clock but now you come at noon." I didn't think that was very nice but oh well. I also remember I think that day when school was almost out my big brother Earl came to take me home because I got out befor everybody else but this time he come a little bit early but I didn't know it so I went with him . The next day I got in truble for leaving so early. I think Earl knew it was little early because he didn't like the teacher and he went down the street in frunt of the schood and honked the horn to distirbe the class.

Journal number four

I hope I remember where I was one the last entery. After we left Masa Arizona we went to Huricain for six months this is where I go going to the LDS Church. I think I was in the last year of primary. I was really liking it. I didn't at this time go to church yet because I didn't have anybody to encurage me yet. I do remember that I liked school. I would never miss school because I liked it so well . I guess I say this because I see some of my grandkids making some excuse to not to have to go to school. I can remember that I had kids teese me and throw rocks at me when I was going to school in Short Creek Arizona but that didn't make me not like school. I remember one year when we were going to school in Short Creek I was picked to run the arrons for the teacher and I had to go a long ways because we hat to go clear across the creek where it was in the Utah side of the town that is called Hills Dail now. I even remember when we would go out to recess and the kids would not let me play on the slide or the swings but I didn't want to stay home from school . I guess I am saying you need to forget these things and simply go to school. Now getting back to Huricain. Like I said we stayed there six months. We then moved to Salt Lake City. I don't remember the address but I think it was Lindin Av but not sure . I don't remember how long we stayed there it was probably a year. Then we moved to another house and was there for about three years. These were all in the same arrea. This was the house we lived when Dad came home one nnight and told us that we needed to go the Elco Nevada because the law was going to come and take us away from him. That night we packed the car us and left. There was six of us kids and they had the car packed up to almost the top of the car and us kids layed acrossed the top of all the cloths and beding . We were scared because of just what had happened to us when they had the raid that summer. We were there for half of the summer while Dad devorsed aunt Esther which was Dads second wife and Married Mom legeal. Then Dad thinking that he was still in the llime light of the law took us to Mexico where Dads sister-in-law liked. I am not really sure how she was really related to us but that is as close as I can come. We stayed there for the rest of the summer. Dad wanted to leave me down there but I was a little scared because an old man was looking at me and I didn't know what was going on. I was interested in a younger boy and I liked he really a lot but I was more scared of this older man and I would not stay down there even though we didn't have much room . We come back to the house that we were living in when he came that night and took us to Nevada. Dad told us kids that we should stay home from school but I told Mom thad I was not staying home from school because I liked school so well.

my journal

I don't know if I posted the last one. It was the beginning of my journal. I was talking about the year l953 when they had a raid in Short Creek Arizona. We lived there at the time. It was a experience I would not ever want to experience again. I was ll years old at the time. We as a family were taken down to Masa Arizona in buses and were put into homes as families and I think we were put into probable the best family. It was an older couple and they had a 18 year old girl still at home. It was really funny the things us as kids liked to eat we had never had catchup or botten bread before. We liked catchup sandwiches the best. They treated us really good . We could have just about anything we wanted. Which was not very heard to please us because we had had none of the things that they had so anything was good to us. This is one of the things I remember that I did that was not really funny at the time but the 18 year old was a little on the heavy side and I was sitting by her on a bench and I just made a simple statement I said look at how much room you take and I said I don't take as much room as you do. I don't think that is very funny now . I think it was roud. She took it really good though. These people were very good people though. They drank coffee but they didn't try to give it to us.
Some of the other families were not quite as lucky as we were. I remember the ones that my sister Esther got were not as lucky because they would try and give coffee to her kids and other things not bad things but it was things that st didn't want her kids to eat. Esther was put into different families because of that but my Mom and us kids we left into the same families all the time we were down there. We were also taken to parks about once a week so we were able to associate with some of the others. We as a family were not members of the church that lived down there but my parents believed a lot like they did but we didn't join their church. We pretty much stayed to our self. We were down there all summer and we started school down there. They even let our Dad come visit us. He wasn't home when they raded the town. Dad was on a ranch im Arizona some where so he wasn't taken to jail as the rest of the men were. They were taken to Knogman to jail. We were on e of the first to get let go because we promises to not go back to Short Creek and live we ending up in Salt Lake we just went back long enough toget our cloths and a few things. I' ll tell you about that later. April 14, 1009

Blog number 5

I want to tell you what it was like to be a family of plural wives. It at the time I was living in it was the same as normal but now as I look back it was really different. The age I really remember it being was when I was in the fifth grade and I was living in the basement of my uncle who was the leader of the group in what is now called Colorado City and I remember my uncle taking one of his step daughters to wife and I was so shocked because she was only two years older then I and I was only 11years old. I knew then that I didn't like that idea because I was not ready for being a mother. I was still playing with dolls. This was in latter part of 1953. The reason I remember this year is because it was that summer when they had the BIG Reade in Short Creek Arizona,We were living there at the time on the Reade.
We lived in a basement house which only had one bedroom and a kitchen, living room , we as kids slept out side in old cars that had the seats taken out with mattresses in there , that is if we were lucky. One night about midnight we were woken up with sirens coming from both ends of town. Where the police were coming to take over the town. I remember my brother Sherrell was out in one of the cars and this scared him so bad he jumped up and latterly flew in too my parents bedroom. I was sleeping on a mattress outside on the ground and that scared me so bad also. I can remember hearing somebody running down the street calling for everybody to head for the hills. I remember Mom and Esther, my oldest sister trying to match their kids up as twins because her older kids and moms youngest ones were the same age. That sounds pretty funny but my sister was married when she was only 14 years old. This is the part of plural marriage that I didn't like. This makes it so you don't have a chance to be children especially the girls. Esthers first two children died shortly after they were born because he body was not ready to carry babies. My sister, Esther had 14 children. She was not able to have fun in her life. She couldn't play with dolls or go out and play ball or any thing like that she was taking care of her little babies and cleaning house. I have always felt sorry for her. This is why I am really glad I chose the way of life did.Well I better get on with my story. These are a few things I remember of the Reade. When the police came into Short Creek they took over the school building and fixed to they could take us down there and fix us meals but mom would not take us down there we stayed home and ate.

Blog four April 7, 2009

Just let you know what is going to in my life. Today Delma Paxman called me up to let me know the Gregor Bushar passed away this morning at 3:00 A:M . I wasn't really shocked because he as been bed ridden for atleast a month. His furnal will be this saterday at 1:oo.
This morning I was talking with Dean befor Delma called up and I seen another side of Dean. I don't know how to explain it to you but he seemed to be a sad side. He has always made you think that he didn't care about things like this but he really does. I decided I needed to be more kind to him .
I am going to talked about what I am doing . I am trying to get a quilt for each one of my grand kids. I have one for each of my older ones and now am down to my younger ones. Last year I didn't get it done until just befor Christmas and I said that I wasn't going to do that this year so I am trying to get them done befor the summer is here. I probable won't get them down befor sept. but I will get them befor thanksgiveing or they won't get done. I have atleast five to go. I'll do what ever I have left next year.
I am going to try to get on here every day from now on. I won't do too much but I will give you a little update. I am going to try to get a little of my history on here. I have been going to try to get this done for a long time. Well take care and I'll see you next time. Love Ann

Blog three March 8, 2009

Just a note to let you know what is going on in my life. I am getting a good start on my christmas next year. I have got one of my quilts almost done. I am getting to the end of my quilts that I am making for my grandkids. I have all of my older ones done and part of the younger ones done. I have about eight more to do. I am trying to get DeAnn to make a quilt top made for the brothers and sisters but they won't get quilted until next year but that is alright. I love to quilt but and I hope my kids like the quilts. A couple of months ago We Deans brothers and sister went to to Franks and celebrated his birthday. It turned out really good. Frank is not doing very good. I have really enjoyed him all our married life. Every body told me he was alot like his Dad. I never met Deans dad and if he was like Frank I think I would have liked him a lot. Well since we came back from Franks birthday party Gregor, his brother, got sick and they don''t know how much longer he is going to live. He is going up and down. Last saterday he couldn't even comunicate with us but today sunday the 8th of March Bryay and Tresa went to visit him and he was doing really good. But they say he won't last too long because he still has water on his loungs . Well I will sign off and will try to get on my blogg more often .

My second post:

I have had a very nice day so far. I got up this morning and said my prayers and read my scriptures . I am reading a book on adverisitys . It is such a good book and I want to read it over again so I will catch all that I need to know.
Today I am going to tend my youngest grand baby. He is so cute . I love to tend him. I also had Jack,Rachelles middle boy. He is so cute. He reminded me of Shawn Truman. Some of his actions. I also went over to Bryans to take a blanket that I finished for Teresa. When I went into their house I looked at the kids and they had had their hair cut really short . It looked very nice. Reed and Tyler had a buzz and Hunter had a flat top.
When I got home David my brother was there he was coming up here to get so hay qubs for his horses. We talked awhile . I love to visit with him. We have things in coman. I hope one day we can get Joe,my younger brother, into the church. About two years ago we got Alma one of my younger brothers into the church. We worked a long time to get him in. I hope it doesn't take as long to get Joe in to the church . Well I better close for now. I hope I can get use to doing this so I can get better. By fo now.


Love Ann