This is for Rachell Moody to put into the book she is tryimg tp get finshed: In 1962 Dean and I (Ann Bushar) was married we were going to live in Las Vegas Nevada. We meet on a blind date set up by Fenten and Ilona Terry. We went to the Flower Drum song that was playing in Las Vegas on the strip on our first date. I was not sure that he really liked me when he took me home. I was working at the Trafalga restrent in St. George Utah. It was where the Gray Hound buss stoped and Fenten owned it. The next week end I got a telephone call where I worked and I was suprised that it was Dean he wanted to know if he could come down to St. George to take me out and I said yes so that started our courting. We went together from March until Augest and on August te 11th we were married in the St. George Temple.

We started our life together in Las Vegas in a apparatment close to the church. We started out in the 8th word. We haden't been married for very lo ng befor we was able to get i nto a house. There was a couple that was needing to sell their house and we just took over their payments pluss paying them a little more I can't remember how much more but it wasn't very much. We were not married more then a year when we had our first baby. We named her DeAnn.

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On my history of Helen Ann Johnson Bushar 2009

I don't know where I am on my history but I will go where I think I am and hope I am right. After the raid of 1953 after we left Masa Arizona. We as a family moved for a short time to Hurrican Utah then we went to Salt Lake City Utah and while we lived there we moved to atleast three times in the same area. We went to the same school. I lived there in Salt Lake for 6 years. I had made up my mind that I was not going to move again but things happened and I ended up in St. George for the last two years of school. I grauduated from Dixie High. the first year in high school Iwent to East High in Salt Lake. While we lived in Salt Lake City I met a girl named Mary Ann and all the time we lived there we ran around. We were best of friends all the time we lived there. We had our times that we got mad at each others but most of the times we done every thing together. I remember going over to her house and help her do her house work. I didn't do as much over to my house as we did over to her house. I don't know why that is the way it went but it was. We went to the county fair one time and I remember having a litle money I can't remember how mom was able to give me a little money but she did and Mary Ann borrowed what I had left and said that she would pay it back but she didn't and didn't so I ask for it and she got really mad at me for asking for it back. If it had been mine I probably would have lelt it go but I felt that I needed to give it back to mom because I know she didn't have money for food or clothing so I ask for it back. MaryAnn was mad at me for the longest time. But ofcourse we got back together in a day or two then every thing was alright. Well I better go for now because some of my grand kids are here and I don't know what they are doing.

Aug 7, 2009

Here it is 11:00 at night. I just got through working on my family search so I thought I would write a little on my blogg. I hope things get a little better with my family. It has been about four weeks or more since we gave the bussiness to Davit Hull and when I say give I mean give and it is hard to let something that has been in the family for about thirty years go. I don't really understand the people that we let it go to how they can treat Dean like they do. I know why they let the Bushars go because they wanted to do their own thing but to be actly not very nice to is another thing. I hope that Dean can really get out of there so we can go on with our life. I really wish Dean and I could get to go on our mission as we were going to about three or four years ago but Dean keeps saying we don't have money but I know if he would let it go that the Lord would provide so we could go. We really don't have very much money coming in but I know we could do it if we simply have the faith and Dean really wonted to go. I feel we need to really get out of here so we can forget things.

I hope that one day I can really forgive everyone for the things that they have done to make our family have the problem we are having. There are some people that made some of the family atmost hate one another some has come right and told the oones that they hurt that they were sorry but others haven't. I hope some day everybody will do it because we need to be able to forgive. I love all of my family and when I say all I mean the in-laws they are really my family and I hope we can be a family again.

We are having a family fast so we can have the spirit with us all. I love you all and hope I haven't hurt anyones feelings.

Trust this and start right now imagining your life exactly as you want it to be. The challenge of the time in which we live is no longer how much pain can we endure, but how big can we dream, how much joy can we hold, and how long will we let it be they way? Pain and struggle are familiar to all of us, yet it is not our natural state. Our natural state is to feel good and to know happyness. I used to walk around the house repeating between fifty to one hundred times a day, "I am happy, l ife is easy, and it is familiar." I would notice and catch myself making life hareder than it had to be and say to myself, Some part of me is still believing I am a victim and that life has to be hard. Then I sould ask myself, What do I want? I want to feel good, I want to be happy, and I want others to feel good just being around me. Then I would translate that into self-affirmations and say to myself, I am feeling good. I am happy. I am experiencing others feeliing good just from being in my prrence.

whatever you are currently dealing with , know that it no longer has to be hard or rake a long time. to change . Your intention to feel good right now willbe honored and your life will strt to change. Keep coming back to that and thinkgood thoughts as many times as you need to. It will become your reality.

Love to my family and hope you will feel good about your family . Your brothers and sisters as well as your children and I hope you will be happy you are in the family that you are in. May the Lord bless and keep you through out your life. I love each and every one of you and I can't tell you this enough. Love Mom

July 26,2009
It seems like I do good and then I get something going and I stop for a few weeks . Dean and I went to San Deago California to visit with David my son befor he went out on his last six month deploiment. We also went down to visit with him and help them pack up so Rebecca could move down to St George for that six months because they will be going sure duty when he comes back from his six month out on the boat. I hope they do not see too much action while he is out there. David and Rebecca is doing really good she showes each other that they love each other. I am so excited that he found some one that really loved him. I am so excited to have David being able to go the sure duty so he can be with his family more. I also am so happy that he will be able to have Shadow with him more often. I also will be much happer if they can move closer to Vegas where he can get her more often and I hope they will get lawyer to get things streightened out so they don't have as much truble like they have had in the past.
Now I will talke about Bryan for awhile. Bryan lost his shop and was let go so he doesn't have a real job and so he is looking for a job and the Good Year rep has been helping him and it looks llike he has a job in Texas in Antionia. And we think he has a good chance he is going to get his house sold. I sure hope he will be able to get all he needs. I am really sure he will get it. We need to think possitive or we won't get what we want. We need to do our part and then ask the Lord for his help then you will get it but you need to have the faith and if it is what you really need and want you will get it. Well I better close for now and get back on tomorrow. We love you and will talk to you later.

Love Ann

May 25, 2009

After the raid we moved to Salt Lake City Utah. We as a family lived in three different homes while we lived there. The first one was Lindin Av. we lived there for one year . We went to Webster elementary for 6th and 7th grade. It was really quite nice because we lived in three different homes and they were with in two blocks of each other. The last one was right across the street from the school. The others was about three blocks from the school. My seventh grade teacher was named Mr. Scott and this is where I got my son Scotts name. I really liked him. I remember one summer he took his class on a swimming party. I thought I could swim so I went down to the deep end of the swimming pool and jumped in and I decided really quick that I didn't know how to swim because I went up and down and up and down quite a few times before some one got out there to save me. From then on I swim but down in the shallow end of the pool. But I quickly learned how to swim. I taught myself. I later become a swimming teacher but i t was not until I was out of High school. Later that summer we were going to go to Lagoon a amusement park with the same teacher. It was before Lagoon was very big. There was not very many rides there. I think the fun house was the main thing there. It was still fun. I sure loved Mr. Scott he was a very nice teacher. I often wounder if his son is the general authority .

The next thing that happened is the time that Dad decided that the Law was after him so he lo added us all in the car and took us to Nevada so he could keep his family from getting put in foster homes and at the same time he divorced Aunt Esther ,
Dads second wife and married Mom legal. We was not there very long when he decided that he needed to take us to Mexico for the same reason. We were down there for the rest of the summer . Then he took us back to Salt Lake where we lived before. When we got back there our home had been taken and re rented so we had to find us another home. We moved into a house that was over a store right across from the elementary. Dad told us kids that we couldn't go to school because the law was still looking for us and that they would take us kids away from them and put us into a Foster home. I didn't believe that and told Mom that I was going to go to school. Nothing happened .

I think I got to the point where we were moving from Little Field Arizona to Huntington Utah when I last left off. I need to have Rachelle post the last entery because I don't know how to get it back when I save it because I get tired after I have been on the computer for a long time. So I hope I saved it. When Dad moved us from Little Field Arizona to Huntington Utah he had a large truck and loaded all of our things in it but he didn't have a end gate on it and some of us kids had to get in the back of the truck and I remember I was so scared that I would fall out of the back. But ofcourse we didn't but I was still scared. It seemed so long and far away. When we got there it was a coal mind town. There were a few houses but not many and my Dad worked in the coal mind. All we had for a home was a very large tent. There was Isebell, Sherrell, me , Joe, Alma, and Darell. and Mom and Dad. They made two bedrooms and a living room kitschen combind. The boys slept into the living room kitchen and the girls had one of the bed rooms and Mom and Dad took the other bedroom. We lived there for about two years. I was in the third grade when we moved down there. This seems so weird because I was in the first grade when we was in Little Field we moved to Short Creek for a few months befor we moved to the coal mind. We moved so often I get so mixed up. While we lived at the coal mind Mom had another baby boy. He was born in september in the middle of my third year in school my sister Neta lived in Nevada and she wanted me to come live with her for the second half of my third year in school and my mom let me go but if it would have been me I wouldn't have let one of my kids go in the middle of the year but my mom let me go. I don't know that it was too good for me . I think that is why I was not very good in school. I don't think kids do good in school when they are moved around so much. This is what happened to me quite often. I am not saying I didn't have friends while we lived at the mind because I did . It would have been a lot better if we would have been in the church where I am now but we did alright. We lived inthe coal mind for two years. We had to ride the bus for about an hour to school The only thing I didn't like was that I had to be in a school class with two grades in it I happened to sleep through a lot of the class because the teacher would teach the forth grade most of the time. I didn't get much out of the third grade. I guess that is why Mom let me go with Neta. Her husband was the teacher on the ranch where she was living . The forth grade was a little better. I was the older ones in the class then. The next year we moved to Short Creek and that was the year that they had the rade which I wrote about first. When we first moved down the Short Creek we lived into what they called Don Covington Castle. I t was a old mans home that it looked like a Castle. We lived in the top of the house. It was way up in the top of the Castle. We didn't live there very long because Dad decided to build us a home. He had built the base ment and took off to I realy don' t know where. He was raising a garden this is where he was when they had the Big Rade in Short Creek. This was one of the first entreys in my blogg. I am going to close for now because I am tired I hope some day we will get this all in order. May the 25

I don't know where I am so I want to go back befor the raid. We lived in Little Field arizona on a ranch when I was in the second gread. I look at Little field arizona now and it is so large when we lived there it just had a small one room school house and there was seven greads in the school. I think I was the only second greader there. The thing I remember most there was that I was so bashful and I wouldn't talk very much and the I remember the teacher was asking me some questions and I jusst sit there and wouldn't even answer her. She go pritty unset with me and she took here ruller and hit my hands very hard and I guess you know from then on I answered her when she talked to me. These are things that I remember so they aren't reallly in order. I remember it must have a been a lote of rain this year because I me and my brother Sherrrell and Isebell, and Elenor I think and myself went to school there and we had to walk for five miles and had to cross the river and this year the water was really high. I remember my sister Elenor took our black horse which we called toots. She was so big we could all get on her to ride across the river and the water came up to her belly . That day we were late for school and when we came into the class room the teacher and the other studente sang a song to us this is the song they sang to."A diller a doller a ten aclock scaller you use to come at ten o'clock but now you come at noon." I didn't think that was very nice but oh well. I also remember I think that day when school was almost out my big brother Earl came to take me home because I got out befor everybody else but this time he come a little bit early but I didn't know it so I went with him . The next day I got in truble for leaving so early. I think Earl knew it was little early because he didn't like the teacher and he went down the street in frunt of the schood and honked the horn to distirbe the class.